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Amanda FoxMy struggle
Throughout my whole life I have always been the skinny one. I was popular throughout school. Got along with everyone and had only a few enemies. Well, my dad died when I was 10, and in 2000 and something my mom got remarried and I had to leave everything I had ever known and move here to Scottsdale. I soon was depressed, started cutting, didn’t get along with my new ‘dad’ and life just sucked. I moved again but far enough that I had to make new friends. I started fighting w my family, and then my parents started fighting because of me. I never knew what I was doing wrong. There were never confrontations or ‘talk it outs’, it was always yelling and cursing. So I decided I had to be perfect. I started restricting food, taking diet pills to purging even when I hadn’t eaten. I figured if I were beautiful on the outside then people would look past the mess on the inside. Was I fooled. My eating habits made everything worse.
My mom would get calls from the school because I was caught purging, I passed out, caught taking diet pills, friends and teachers were worried about me and the list goes on. I eventually got kicked out. I became very suicidal, and had no purpose to live. But by this time, my habits became an addiction I couldn’t control. While being parental free I kinda went wild and partied all day everyday. Hardly went to school and if I did it was because my friends had alcohol or drugs. And my stupidity led me to being a rape victim.
After a few suicide attempts I moved back in with my mom, dropped out of H.S. and went to 6 months Inpatient.
AKA Mercy Ministries.
I still struggle everyday and still believe those negative thoughts. But I’m further along then before I had left. Amen.
